The 3am Text Confessions Meme

[pantheraliam]

There’s Something I Need You to Know
Please don’t cancel me

Everyone has their secrets. Some are bigger than others, but it may be any number of things that are weighing down on your conscience. One night, whether it induced by lack of sleep, alcohol consumption, or some supernatural force, you decide to come out with it once and for all. It’s time to confess.

Directions:
1. Post a TL with your character name and canon in the subject line. You can either leave your TL blank for others to come confess, or you can put a confession in your top level. Your character’s confession can be anything from “I killed someone” to “I’m in love with my best friend” to “I’ve never eaten chocolate and vanilla swirl ice cream”. Any and all confessions are welcome - in fact, feel free to put a few different ones in your TL if you want people to pick and choose!
2. Respond to other people’s TLs with either your character’s own confession, or with a response to their’s.
3. Be respectful, follow basic dwrp meme rules, etc.!

Open to all fandom characters, OCs, AUs, CRAUs, etc.. Tagging around is highly encouraged!

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Richard C. Gansey III | The Raven Cycle | OTA

[kingseeking]

((ooc: I’ve only read book one all the way through so far, so please avoid spoilers beyond that!))

1 - lightest option
I’m not actually sure I’ve ever been to a Wal-Mart.

2 - slightly heavier option
I’m not always proud to be myself. I know I have plenty of flaws. I try so hard to keep myself and everyone else afloat, and it’s exhausting. Sometimes I feel like it’s too much to handle.
((ooc: not sure he’d send this to anyone in the gangsey, but it could be a misfire, or maybe he’s just really sleep deprived and anxious idk))

3 - heaviest option
Death terrifies me, but it’s not my own I’m worried about. Not really.

4 - text him

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[notjane]

Long night, Gansey?

You know it’s not your job to save everyone, right? I thought rich boys like you had more important things to worry about... like Welsh kings.

[kingseeking]

[Oh dear. He...did not mean to send that to Blue. Better than Adam or Ronan, but still unintentional; furthermore, it’s embarrassing. Those are thoughts for acquaintances, not the people he’s busy supporting.

[He’s struck with a few sensations all at once.

[1. Guilt. He wouldn’t want Blue to think for a moment that he finds any of his friends to be a burden.

[2. The impulse to save face. He could come up with some reason why what he said wasn’t what he said or how it didn’t sound like what it sounded like, but he doesn’t like to lie when he doesn’t have to, and he has a feeling she’d probably see through it.

[3. The name “Dick” feels very fitting right now.

[What else can he really say but...]

Fine morning, Jane. [It is technically the morning.] That message wasn’t intended for you. I apologize.

[notjane]

I sort of figured that.

[Her fingers brushed the side of her phone tentatively. Wondering if the conversation was better left to end there.]

[But her eyes darted back along the previous lines and a part of her was pained at the thought of the Resident King of Henrietta left alone with very real and heavy thoughts.]

[Blue’s heart fluttered at the thought of how close to the real Gansey she felt just now. Even just in the words on her screen.]

I meant what I said, you know. You shouldn’t carry that kind of burden on your own.

[kingseeking]

It’s not a burden.

[Back to the saving face impulse. It’s a very quick text back. Reading his own lines back to himself, he realizes how very much it sounds like a burden, and he kicks himself for that.

[Truthfully, he doesn’t really want to be having this conversation right now, but he can’t leave Blue thinking that he finds any one of his friends to be a burden. The idea makes him feel slightly nauseous.]

It’s been a long night, like you said. I shouldn’t have said any of that.

I don’t feel like I’m alone, of course. :) How could I? I just need some sleep.

[It’s not a lie, per se...but.]

I don’t want you to think I feel that way at all. That anyone is a burden. It’s a pressure I put on myself completely.

[notjane]

[She almost smacks herself in the head with her phone. Of course that backfired!]

I don’t think that about you. I didn’t mean that.

[She types that to him quickly, trying to think on her feet so early in the morning. He wants this to end. She should let it go.]

Your problem isn’t other people, it’s that heart of yours.

[Blue ignored the hard thumping in her chest against her pillow as she rolled into a comfortable position to type. Gansey wasn’t the only one here who struggled being honest with themselves and others. ]

I wouldn’t say I know a lot of people, but You are one of the most thoughtful and emotional people I’ve ever met.

You made me feel welcome before you even knew who I was. And I gave you a hard time right away. I thought that was just you playing a part once, but I know better now. You are Genuinely a wonderful...loving person.

[Even writing love in this context sent an odd electricity through her fingertips as she sent it away.]

[kingseeking]

[Now, this...makes Gansey sit up a little straighter in bed, brow furrowed at his phone. Surely he must be misreading somehow. Or maybe he’s just coming off so pathetically that Blue feels she has to be—-

[No. He casts that line of thought out right away. Blue wouldn’t be, do, or say anything she didn’t want to. Gansey notices his own heart beating more solidly in his chest - what’s all that for?

[He begins to worry that too much time has passed between responses, but he’s at a slight loss for words. What she’s said, it’s really a very...]

That is a lovely compliment, Blue.

Genuinely. Thank you.

[And what a lame response that is, he thinks, but what else is he to say? Her words mean more than she realizes. It’s something Gansey doesn’t hear as often as he should.]

Honestly, I’m not quite sure what else I can say. I did a fine job of exposing myself tonight, didn’t I?

[notjane]

[Blue breathed a sigh of relief when she got a text. That that seemed to do the trick to ease the young man, but her own heart was still racing despite her wishes. Gansey seemed to have that effect on her more and more these days. Especially when he used her true name.]

Being human isn’t a bad look on you. You should wear it more often.

[Her lips pulled into a smile, hoping he would read her teasing tone.]

Everything happens for a reason. Maybe Fate is trying to tell you that you can lean on me when you’re feeling a bit too heavy. I may be small, but I’m very sturdy.

[kingseeking]

[“Human” she says, and that makes Gansey’s lips fall into a frown behind his phone. It’s a dreary reminder that Blue does and probably always has seen through him. “Exposed” really does not begin to cover it. He knows well enough that the closest of his friends know the two sides of him, and it’s not that Blue and he aren’t close, but she’s been able to call him on his bullshit from the first moment they met. It’s an extremely discomfiting realization.]

You are certainly something. Very sturdy I’d say, yes.

[He considers leaving it at that. Maybe he should. It’s times like these that make Gansey want to withdraw into himself and put the mask back on, but as it is, that mask was already cast to the side the moment he sent that misdirected text. And he sent it in the first place because he was tired of hiding. At least tonight.]

Is that how you see me, Blue? Inhuman?

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[versigny]

You're lucky. I promise you're not missing out on much.

...But they do have amazingly tiny 50 cent pies that always sound like a good idea at 2AM.

[kingseeking]

I’d say any and all pies sound like a good idea at 2am. And they are.

But it seems like a very...large place to be selling “amazingly tiny” anything.

[He has seen a Wal-Mart at least. Those places are massive!]

[versigny]

They're definitely trying to come for Costco in terms of store size. It's actually rather fun to roam around a Walmart and see what you can find.

If you'd like to visit one, let me know. I'd love to see your reaction in real time.

[kingseeking]

[This makes Gansey laugh.]

Well, I’m not a Pilgrim. I know what a Wal-Mart is, I’ve just never shopped there. I have a couple of friends who would probably think that was pretty ignorant.

I have been to a Costco though. They definitely don’t sell anything tiny.

[versigny]

Your friends are weird.

[ her affectionate tone is obvious, although she thinks she can understand where his friends come from; she and Gansey are from the wealthier class. and Walmart crowds... are not usually described as wealthy. ]

And Costco definitely doesn't. It's awfully tempting to buy one of those huge snack packs but I know I'll always get sick of it halfway through because it's just so much to eat by myself.

[kingseeking]

They are a motley crew if anything.

[He wouldn’t trade them for the world.]

How heavily would you judge me if I told you that I’d managed to accomplish that feat once or twice?

I swear I was sleep-walking.

[He wasn’t, of course.]

[versigny]

It all really hangs on what snack pack you managed to finish 'once or twice'.

(But it's really more a mix of horror and admiration. Like if you say you finished a whole Costco pack of Rice Krispy Treats... I'm not sure I'll believe you're human.)

[kingseeking]

How about one of those gigantic boxes of Goldfish crackers?

2

[dreamtheft]

you and adam get into another fight?

[kingseeking]

[Oh, so he did actually hit send. And Ronan actually checked a message on his phone. These two things combined are both unexpected and embarrassing.]

Please use discretion with this, Ronan. I don’t want anyone to think I’m going around tattling on them.

We just had a disagreement.

[dreamtheft]

[ Yes, yes you did, Gansey.

Ronan used his elbows to prop himself up while still in bed. ]

discrete? never heard of it.
about?

[kingseeking]

Yes, discrete. Please, Ronan.

[He won’t say another word until he feels that it won’t get back to Adam in the heat of someone else’s argument. Not that he’d expect that from Ronan, but listen. It’s been an anxious night for Richard C. Gansey. That much is probably clear.]

[dreamtheft]

your dumb secret is safe with me.
spill it.

[kingseeking]

It’s not even a secret. It was just a stupid fight. Nothing out of the ordinary.

I offered to pay for a car part that he was having trouble finding a decent version of. Temporarily, just until he could pay me back.

Apparently that makes me evil incarnate.

[He knows better than to offer Adam anything that can be misconstrued as charity, and yet he continues to do so. Hence his feeling like a total idiot. But Christ, is he not allowed to help his friends when they need it? He said Adam could pay him back.]

[dreamtheft]

[ Ronan was the least bit surprised. This was a common occurrence between the two, and he couldn't help the roll of his eyes. ]

just give it a day.

[kingseeking]

It’s the principle of thing! I just don’t get what the big deal is. I really don’t. I’m not pitying him, I just want to help. And beside that, this was a car that his father needed him to get working, so yes. I wanted to help move that along as quickly as possible. Does that really make me the devil? It’s ridiculous!